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Lost In My Thoughts
A Newly Written Poem By Myself
Lost In My Thoughts
As I sit here alone in the dark, in my room
Like I do every night, lost in my thoughts
Trying not to let myself get down in the gloom
All of our lives are like those story plots
Turning each page as we navigate through
For the last few days where I’ve had no words
Instead, I expressed myself in my writing
Enjoying listening to the sound of the birds
Been feeling like keeping myself in hiding
That desire to distance from all in the world
Sometimes I feel like I don’t belong anywhere
Forever feeling like an outsider in my life
I often question silently to myself ‘but why?’
The pain my body is in is like a sharp knife
It’s not often where I spend a day without pain
The self doubt I carry around me in my head
It’s almost as suffocating as the chest pains
It’s all so challenging for me to forever shred
Like someone has put me in big, heavy chains
Can be a burden to be an empathic person
My life has thrown so much at me already
Living with a rare disease is like a rollercoaster
There have been times where it’s been scary
Definitely not worth being a cut-out wall poster
So many tears have been cried over the years
Now it’s the music, that I’m currently listening to
Where the words inspire me yet they make me cry
They help me in my weak times to get through
I’ll keep on fighting until it’s time for my bye bye
Maybe it’s okay to follow my own path in life
Everyday there is something beautiful to see
I’ll keep on embracing being alive in my own style
Focusing on those things that fill me with glee
Forever you’ll see me with my fabdabbydozy smile
With my loved ones around me, I’ll be just fine!!
Written by Katie Wearing
Date 11th March, 2021
