Hi everyone,

I hope you’re all doing good and keeping safe?!! Last night, I spent just over two hours watching a group of lovely ladies, talking to the wonderful wife of a BSB member, and I’m thankful that I did.

There has been a few challenging weeks with my health, having appointments here and there, and waiting for some upcoming tests. So, I’m trying to spend as much as I can relaxing and watching things I enjoy, which I know many of us do anyway.

So last night, I was feeling anxious and feeling restless as I had quite an important appointment today which is focusing around what the hospital has found in my genes. When I found out that a particular podcast was doing a video (and instead of the usual podcast which made me more excited as I tend to lip read when people talk due to my hearing issues and manage to keep my focus better) and that they were having a very special guest. Before I reveal about the guest, this podcast is probably the one I’ve listened to the most, even more so than let’s say my favourite BSB boy’s podcast (ssh don’t tell him! 🤐😂). Maybe this is because I know who the guests are unlike the podcast I just mentioned about (again, sorry AJ!). However, I know I probably should listen to his podcast more as I too have severe anxiety problems (I have Generalised Anxiety Disorder and Panic Disorder as well as all of my physical conditions (damn why do I have to be so greedy?! 😂)

Anyway, this podcast that I’m talking about is ‘Backstreet’s Back Podcast’ which is hosted by Taylor, Lori, Medina and Melly who do a fabulous job. They’re relatable in many ways and I appreciate their honesty whenever they do share personal stories/experiences. I understand it’s not always easy to be honest about things that are difficult to talk about publicly but when you talk, it feels like I’m sitting with a group of friends.

This leads on to the special guest they had on this latest episode, who is none other than the beautiful, strong and humble being that is Rochelle McLean. From whenever I first started following her on Instagram then onto Twitter, I just adore her. She’s so relatable, humble and so caring. We share many of the same values. While she may have a ‘wonderful life that many would probably dream of, a loving husband, gorgeous big home and two adorable little girls, and everything else that comes with being a wife of the world’s biggest selling boyband member, she’s so down to earth. I’ve never seen her show off or be anything ignorant towards other people and their situations. My interactions with Rochelle have always been lovely, encouraging and so genuine.

I’m thankful for the podcast ladies for making this happen with Rochelle, it definitely felt natural to watch, in the sense it was like I was watching five friends sitting and chatting. I found this episode, inspiring. It made me think about my relationship with my five year old niece, Ciara and how I tell her that there’s a big world out there, and that she can do whatever she wants. As she gets older, she will understand more about people with disabilities (obviously because of me, and teaching her to understand that we may not always be able to do the same things etc). Whenever she gets bossy, I always say that she will make a brilliant boss some day which I personally think is positive and encouraging.

Anyway, I think I’m going off on a little tangent, ha ha! Watching the episode definitely took my mind off things for a while and it really did relax me. I certainly didn’t feel like a ‘bad fan’ that I was feeling beforehand. Like the ladies, I’m no longer unapologetic for speaking up about the things I’m passionate and care about on my social media. I’ve learned that it’s okay if I lose a follower or two, because their moral compass obviously didn’t align with mine… I believe in fairness, equality, acceptance, accessibility and my heart is compassionate and full of love. All I want is, is that people are kind, accepting, open-minded and be able to be their true authentic selves, whoever they are.

I look forward to seeing (hopefully seeing) future episodes from these ladies. Although the main theme is obviously about the Backstreet Boys, it’s not all what is talked about which is evident in this episode with Rochelle. Thank you.

Lastly, even though it’s not in any relation to the subject of this blog post, I just want to let you all know that there will be plenty of awareness about EDS as it is EDS (Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) Awareness Month, during May. So if you see any of my posts on my social media, then please share for me. I will also share about my special appointment from today soon once I’ve properly processed it.

Thank you for taking the time to read this blog post and I apologise if it’s a bit jumbled up, I’m feeling exhausted and my mind is a little scattered. I just wanted to share my full thoughts. Take care everyone and always be kind!! See you in my next post!!

Love DinkyKt

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