Hi everyone,

So it's late at night and I just felt like writing down my thoughts, I promise to try and not to ramble too much! I hope whoever is reading this is having a nice day and that you are feeling okay. At the moment, I am feeling okay. Today it was difficult. It literally felt like someone was sucking all of the air out of me, making me feel like I was being suffocated. It gave me a bit of a headache. My Dad helped me with my inhaler to see if it would help at all, although it did help a little but not a great deal. It was better than having nothing at all. I made the decision to try and let myself fall asleep as much as possible which I did end up dozing off.
Then earlier this evening, I publicised my latest mini vlog up on my YouTube channel. I actually filmed this vlog quite a few weeks ago but I had other videos that I wanted to upload first. Vlogging type of videos are definitely the easiest videos to film and edit, you don't have to do as much planning and it's more spontaneous. Although I do really enjoy the research, the planning, the filming on the editing part of my other videos particularly on my 'Dinkykts EDS Diaries' channel, as that is more educational and informative. I do hope to be able to reach out to more people on this channel as it means the world to me to be able to raise awareness about EDS and especially the classical type which is what I have, so if you do ever see any videos, please subscribe and share with your loved ones. I have added a few more new videos on here from both channels so do feel free to check them out when you get a chance and I hope you enjoy and learn something from them.
The progress on my creative writing, my two books that I am working on has slowed down, but hopefully I will pick that back up again in the next few days. One of the books I have completed is the first draft and the other book I am only 1 1/2 chapters left before the first chapter is complete. This will be the first time ever that I have complete books and I am excited to look into how to get them published. Ever since I was a little girl it has been my dream to be an author and I'm getting so close to seeing that dream become a reality. It's exciting! Even though they are two separate books they are intertwined with one another. They are based on a love story but there are elements of disability awareness within the books. I really love this story I love the characters and I hope whoever reads the books, I hope that they enjoy reading them as much as I have enjoyed writing, creating the characters and the stories.
Things have been up-and-down for me recently with regards to her on the feeling of physically and mentally. It's not easy learning how bad your lungs are and it's another thing on top of all my other health issues but I am ploughing on the best that I can. I'm fighting hard to not let the physical and the emotions consume me too much because I want to do as much as I can while I can although I have to be very careful and minimise any risk. Some days I am managing and coping better than others. I am having my birthday is in good days if I've been through truly honest with you all. On the good days I try to be proactive as I can be and resting as much as possible in between and on the bad days in particularly.
I am looking forward to the next Barrow AFC home game which will be against Carlisle United but this isn't for another week yet. We actually saw a goal in the last home game and it made me so happy so I'm hoping to see more goals for the remainder of the season! This call was by John Rooney and it was a good goal some people didn't think it'd gone in but I knew straightaway ha ha! Maybe Ollie Banks can be the Nets goalscorer as he has scored some wonderful goals so far, keeping nine toes and fingers crossed, I could say my hands and feet as well (like the doctors did with me as a youngster haha!) Maybe Robbie Gotts can score again as it's been a while for him anyway good luck Bluebirds! Did I tell you how much I enjoyed the hospitality experience that they gave me at the club? I've vlogged my experience so go onto my YouTube channel to see this video. I hope to do it again soon. A few weeks ago I was thinking about maybe putting a photo-book together from all of the players I've met so far but at the moment I don't have enough photos so I hope to maybe meet more players before the end of the season so that I can fulfil this wish. It would be something really lovely to look at for when I may not be able to go to the football, it has been made harder since they've separated the area off so can't even get near enough now (also harder for those with limited access - won't explain here why). I feel cheeky asking the staff. So far I have met Ollie Banks who I've met three times and he's just so lovely and caring, Joe Grayson, Tom White, Tom Beadling (who noticed I have Jack Grealish on my phone screensaver haha), Patrick Brough and Josh Gordon. I'm very thankful to have met these guys and have definitely made it more enjoyable for me coming to the games.
Anyway, it's even later now, its 2:19 am and my fingers hurt from typing (even if the voice activating typer thing assisted me with some of this typing!). Thank you for reading this and I'm sorry that I did end up rambling a little bit (that's just me in a nutshell ha ha!)
take care everyone and I'll blog again soon, love DinkyKt xx